Well, i'm little bit of fatalist, not full pledged tho, duh. I've become one around 24y.o.
So i'm wondering on my walk outthere, also as many other people they are trying to succeed in something and sacrficing all their time, friendship, family, fun, social life... if everything what i do gonna be for something. Now, i know when i'll get there it's going to be awesome, but i don't know if i'll be alive that day, if i'm gonna make it. If i'll enjoy that little time after achievieving all those skills after decade of hardwork required for smooth, fun, happy ride for rest of my lifespan.
On my walk outside to grocery for my daily ratio of food, so i can sustain my bodyweight, energy needed for work, energy needed to stay stable and healthy, and after morning exercise, i'm telling myself how shitty it would be to die right now or within this day. Not for sake of being dead, well we all going to die anyway at some point and once you are dead, you don't care, it's over and whole world and universe doesnt matter to you and defacto stops its existence with your end. But for sake of all that hassle before, what a wasted time by sketching whole morning, doing exercise, studying, trying achieve stuff and doing grocery when you are about to die within few hours.. That's it! That's the waste of time, energy and willpower. In that case i would rather spend my last day watching clouds and chilling out, accepting my fate and enjoying that feel that i was doing everything for being happy. And even tho i didnt achieved it yet, i would know i was going there anyway, dying as a man who was about to succeed and finally own this very game after 3 decades of "miserable life".
As you can see, despite being fatalist and realist, i do sustain very optimistic mood, which will come as you grow up. Accepting your faint by controlling your very life. Also, i think, it's based on observation skills, simply by observing the world around you. Especially if you are an artist, these thoughts eventually caught up with you.
Oh my.. can't wait to learn sketch so i can do comics about these random thoughts.
Also i hope i didnt f***up your mind too much. If i did, i'm not sorry, theres nothing but true behind it and you'll get there one day anyway, even tho most of people don't give too much thought to it.
If you are worshipping religion and believe in whatever, don't get offended please, for this is just my opinion and view, i would't argue with you over yours. Suit yourself.
Have a nice day! ^^